Thursday, June 28, 2007


merrily merrily merrily merrily, life is but a dream. <--i call false.

life, imo, is more of a game. no matter how folks to disguise it otherwise, life is a game. in some respects i'd even say it was a great gamble. and yes even in this, the house always wins.

...i know a bean who denies its participation in this greatest of games. i rather think that the bean is being, if not disingenous, then ignorant. as the bean is a friend, i give the benefit of a doubt and come down on the side of ignorance, or willful blindness. lol.

we're all players at some level. maybe not explicitly, and maybe we don't realize that we're playing, but that doesn't impede the reality. the trick is to see the game, as much as we can, and either make it our own, or accept being pwned by something greater. personally i want to make the game mine, although i see the greater profit in the pwnage. it's a strange tension.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

it was always a dark and stormy night...

right then. here's the deal. it's similar to nanowrimo. you know, the one that takes place in november? yup, that's the one. this also involves spending a chunk of time hunched over a computer, or typewriter, or even a pad of paper (presumably with a pen/pencil/stylus of some sort) in hand. the catch is that in august the topic will be mysteries, of the noir or not-so-noir varieties. so give the picture a click, and come join the fun. we're in the planning stages now, and august looks to be full of darkly handsome, or dangerously beautiful, people doing dark deeds.

for those who might wonder, nope i had nothing to do with putting this together. on my honor, what there is left of it. lol.

now back to your regularly scheduled therapy sessions, be they horizontal or vertical.

Monday, June 11, 2007

toi et que toi

i realized yesterday that i missed you. don't worry though, i'm not going to try calling or even dropping snail mail in your direction; i got the hint when you stopped returning my phone calls.

i miss your smile, and your casual nature. i miss your warmth, and your personality. i miss your presence. i miss you.

Monday, June 04, 2007


i dunno if it's because i played so hard this weekend, but today finds me tired. the morning started out alright, but then i was overcome with a malaise, un peu d'ennui. and now... je divague.

i drift from thought to thought, unable to concentrate, focus, and increase my productivity. the muscles in my shoulders and upper back are full of tension. *sigh*

but the weekend was surely worth it. every minute. *contented grin*