Tuesday, November 29, 2005


i slept in peace, and woke content.

color me thankful for those two mercies.

Monday, November 28, 2005


if perfect love driveth out all fear...,

does that mean that perfect fear driveth out all love?...

Monday, November 21, 2005

new day

today is a fresh day. a new beginning if you will.

forecast is quite fair; warm with variable breezes.


Tuesday, November 15, 2005

going home_2

i cut my fingers on oysters the other day. it didn't hurt really. didn't realize those strips were actually my flesh being sliced away until the next day when i saw the white lines on my fingers.

i returned to my nest today and found it quite despoiled. all the emotive attractive had been stripped away, like the upper layers of my epidermis. i could barely smell my scent there. and perhaps i imagined even that hint. *sigh* if only my pee was more pungent? more filled with double bond carbon rings?

my space was empty and void. my cubicle now like one yet to be used. tabula rasa. all that made it my nest, gone. my nest-mates look like pleasant strangers. empty subjects with no substance behind them.

(grey sky, pale clouds. snow?
a frosty wind through leaves. brrr!
where is my jacket?)

should i not have returned??

Friday, November 11, 2005

crooked paths

as far as i'm concerned, pat robertson's latest denunciation of those who denied a place for intelligent design in schools is another example that the man is a kook and a nutbag. i mean no disrespect in saying so. who is he to say where God is and isn't, and who God will and will not listen to?

speaking as a christian who believes that God created the world and original critters in 6 days, i applaud those folks who voted against allowing intelligent design into their schools. why? because at this stage of the game, it causes more harm than good. why? because the topic (and what it implies) is still too emotional for people to discuss it rationally, logically.

the two reasons i mention may not be the motivation of the folks who voted "nay." this is fine. they don't have to be. however it happened, the decision made was wise.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

status report

It was a rough afternoon, then a rough evening, then a rough night, those of yesterday. Status today? For the eyes of any and all?
The three quotes below say it all:

"Mon oeil fond en larmes, sans repos, sans rel√Ęche"
-Lamentations 3:49, LSG

"Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message She Is Dead,
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

She was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last for ever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good."
-W.H. Auden (unmodified form found here)

"Oh wretched man that I am, who will deliver me from the body of this death?"
-Romans 7:24, KJV