in front of a seurat

there comes a time when one needs to realize that while the ideal behind the concept "friendship" exists, it should not be confused with the reality of "friendship;" it would be unwise to take the photograph for the original.

in the same way, one should never take the kindness or unkindness of strangers for anything other than what it is, a momentary, tangential, interaction between two distinct "others." what am i to you? a blip in the way of your progress through time. what are you to me? merely the same.

perhaps it is the yearning to return to the "unity" that makes us confused, and apt to read into the "i love you's" more than the "other" is able to mean.

hands raised

guilty as charged, my friends, guilty as charged!

parading around the courtroom in front of my peers and the judge
admitting my guilt, and freely!

i am guilty of not trying hard enough,
of not believing enough,
of giving in to the darkness.

the sigh of disbelief and the jury stops listening to the defense

we all know there isn't any point
in continuing

except for the farcical value of comedy.

empty space

one of the hardest things is to be quiet.

to keep silent and yet be encouraging; i elaborate
to extend love and support, and at the same time not say anything

when you really want to say something

to rebuild.


..."words are very unnecessary/they can only do harm" -- depeche mode

brief interlude

i'm still here. still plugging along bit by bit.

now i have a nest to care for...

who would have thought?

certainly not me.

the penguins are going at half speed, one group in opposition to the other.

confetti left on the floor still, along with the odd party hat, and forgotten shoe.

i'm just glad everyone took their undies with them. ;)

all the differences

honest answers to honest questions
why then does it feel like lies?

you took the road less traveled
and the vistas before you are places
you never thought you'd see

just because you wouldn't do it again
if given the chance
does not negate the goodness in the current

path

asylum

the padded walls are for your protection
as is the snug jacket

sure you can see the garden outside
but you can't go
it isn't safe

and we're here for your protection.

yes we told you that you'd be free to do and go and eat
and you can, as long as you do and go and eat what we tell you

because we love you
we want the best for you

and as soon as you realize that, and conform to our rules
then you can go out and convert others
to be just as much sons of satan as we are.

it's for your protection
we love you

catscradle

familial obligations
are an odd thing
especially as i'm not in the family.
and yet i feel bound
to make the bindings more secure
even to the expense of my individual.

..."what's a boy in love supposed to do?" (erasure)