a little high a little low_2

yesterday was a high. and i had faith that it would last, and not be fleeting. alas but my faith was misplaced.

last night began the low that continues today. unfortunately tis but the cycle that continues.

when i'm up, i don't believe that the low will come; i don't believe that i need any help whatsoever with whatever this is. and when i'm low, the lethargy & lassitude works against any progress being made.

it's not even that i don't fight against the progression. i do. but my fight is boxing against the air. wrestling the water. all my efforts are tainted against success.