glancing blow

my equilibrium took quite a hit.

i closed down as many ports as i could. i taped up the small cracks to prevent the wind from blowing through. i bought shrubbery to avoid the prying eyes.

did i recluse myself, hoping that in solitary devotions i would receive something of the divine? yes. and yea did i receive something indeed.

and yet here i stand, trembling, unable to decide. no, that's a lie. i made my decision, and i make my decision again. i just wish it would stick.