essence of coffeebeans

maybe it's the essence that is desired...

when i say i'm hungry for chocolate, or cashews, perhaps in a way i'm wanting not so much the particular object, but what is associated with that object.

lately i've been wanting to be closer to the parental units, in a geographical sense. but at the same time i realize that would be a disaster in the making (think chernobyl). perhaps what i really want is a return to a time when all things were made well by watching cartoons with mom, or changing the oil with dad. and even then, not a complete return to that time window, but just a return to how i felt in specific moments, that comfort and acceptance, that wholeness...

i think that dead guy was right when he said that happiness resides in moments, instead of any long-term state of mind...