awkward presentation

apostasy
  --4 syllables
unfaithful
  --3 syllables
liar
  --2 syllables
wrong
  --1 syllable

although, liar isn't exactly unfaithful, at least not all of the time
and wrong could be taken many ways

the shorter, less succinct version is that i no longer am confident of much
regarding myself
and my faith
such as it is